Wednesday 30 June 2021

Everything Happens for a Reason by Katie Allen

Today is my stop on the blog tour for Everything Happens for a Reason by Katie Allen and I'm delighted to share an extract with you. A big thank you to Anne Cater at Random Things Tours for inviting me and to the author and publisher for providing the extract. 



The Blurb

Mum-to-be Rachel did everything right, but it all went wrong. Her son, Luke, was stillborn and she finds herself on maternity leave without a baby, trying to make sense of her loss. When a misguided well-wisher tells her that ‘everything happens for a reason’, she becomes obsessed with finding that reason, driven by grief and convinced that she is somehow to blame. She remembers that on the day she discovered her pregnancy, she’d stopped a man from jumping in front of a train, and she’s now certain that saving his life cost her the life of her son.

Desperate to find him, she enlists an unlikely ally in Lola, an Underground worker, and Lola’s seven-year-old daughter, and eventually tracks him down, with completely unexpected results…

Both a heart-wrenching portrait of grief and a gloriously uplifting and disarmingly funny story of a young woman’s determination, Everything Happens for a Reason is a bittersweet, life-affirming and, quite simply, unforgettable read.

Everything Happens for a Reason was published by Orenda as as an eBook on 10th April 2021 and in audio and paperback on 10th June 2021.



Extract

Your chart says your hearing is fully developed now. I wish you could hear Lola’s voice. It’s in my head. ‘You did a good thing. You did a good thing…’ It’s a cross between an airline pilot and a nurse, authority and comfort. She gets it. All those singing Christians, Bristol Liz and the time-will-healers have been belittling you, and don’t even start me on the ‘I had a miscarriage too’ walrus at the hairdressers. But Lola’s different.


I left her to her paddle waving and radioing, and waited by the barriers for her next break. After one of her colleagues asked if I was lost, I moved to the bus stop outside, glad of my new habit of wearing two jumpers under my coat (padding). I went back inside a few minutes before twelve.


Lola smiled, she looked relieved that I hadn’t fled.


‘I thought I could buy you lunch,’ I said. She had thirty minutes but knew somewhere quick, she said. It was a kebab shop where she gets a discount. She ordered wraps with chips for both of us and I paid.


She’s different above ground. Her voice is louder and she laughs her words rather than speaking them. Her tight black curls bounce around when she talks.


It turns out she also has phrasal retentiveness.


‘You said everything happens for a reason,’ she says, as we find a table at the back.


‘I thought you weren’t listening,’ I say.


She gives me a teacher look.


‘He took Luke’s place. I need to know why,’ I say.


‘What would it change?’ ‘I thought you got it. He’s out there living. What’s he doing with it?’


She checks her watch, tries to catch the kebab man’s eye. ‘What would make you feel better?’ she asks me.


It’s a stupid question, hurtful. My answer’s out before I can stop it. ‘I want my baby back.’


A plate clunks down in front of me, chips fall onto the tabletop. He’s slow to retreat.


‘I mean, say you find him, what would make you feel better?’ asks Lola. She pulls her phone from her pocket, checks the time on that and calls across to the waiter, ‘Put it in a takeaway box.’

‘I haven’t had a chance to think it through,’ I say. ‘But say it’s something like this.’ I find a pen and an old envelope in my bag. ‘Say he was a brain surgeon and since last June, he’s saved two people a week. That’s, roughly, seventy-eight lives. And what if half of those people he saved were social workers, police officers or fire fighters, and each of them has so far saved three more people. Now we’re up to one hundred and ninety-five lives. Or if you go back to the start, count him as well, you’re looking at one hundred and ninety-six lives saved. All because I was on that platform. All because of Luke and because everything happens for a reason.’

Her face concentrates hard as she adds it up with me. I finish out of breath, like the underdog in a courtroom drama. It’s unclear whether it’s my delivery or the sheer numbers, but she says she’ll help, she’ll get me the records for that day. She’s going to log in when the office is empty. We’re meeting at six. I said I’d buy her dinner.


I'm sure you'll agree it sounds great. I'm really looking forward to reading it. 

The Author




Everything Happens for a Reason is Katie’s first novel. She used to be a journalist and columnist at the Guardian and Observer, and started her career as a Reuters correspondent in Berlin and London. The events in Everything Happens for a Reason are fiction, but the premise is loosely autobiographical. Katie’s son, Finn, was stillborn in 2010, and her character’s experience of grief and being on maternity leave without a baby is based on her own. And yes, someone did say to her ‘Everything happens for a reason’.

Katie grew up in Warwickshire and now lives in South London with her husband, children, dog, cat and stick insects. When she’s not writing or walking children and dogs, Katie loves baking, playing the piano, reading news and wishing she had written other people’s brilliant novels.


Thursday 24 June 2021

This is How We Are Human by Louise Beech

Oh, my heart! I know going in that this book was going to be emotional but I had no idea how much it would move me. Welcome to my blog tour review of This is How We Are Human by Louise Beech. Huge thanks to Anne Cater at Random Things Tours for inviting me and to the publisher for my review copy. I will also be buying my own paperback copy for the book shelf - definitely one to keep!



The Blurb

Sebastian James Murphy is twenty years, six months and two days old. He loves swimming, fried eggs and Billy Ocean. Sebastian is autistic. And lonely. Veronica wants her son Sebastian to be happy, and she wants the world to accept him for who he is. She is also thinking about paying a professional to give him what he desperately wants.

Violetta is a high-class escort, who steps out into the night thinking only of money. Of her nursing degree. Paying for her dad’s care. Getting through the dark.

When these three lives collide, and intertwine in unexpected ways, everything changes. For everyone.

Both heartbreaking and heartwarming, This is How We Are Human is a powerful, moving and thoughtful drama about a mother’s love for her son, about getting it wrong when we think we know what’s best, about the lengths we go to care for family and to survive.

This is How We Are Human was published by Orenda Books as an eBook on 10th April 2021 and in paperback and audio on 10th June 2021.



My Review

This is the third of Louise's books I've read after Call Me Star Girl and I Am Dust and for me it's easily the best of the three, and the other two were brilliant! Perhaps this was always going to be the one that touched me the most as I have experience of autism spectrum disorder - to a lesser degree than Sebastian's - within the family and know a little of what it's like to fight for a child/young person.

I finished This is How We Are Human and bawled my eyes out. Proper ugly crying. There were happy tears and sad tears and a whole lot more. And I didn't want to say goodbye to these real, flawed (although not Sebastian) and beautiful characters. 

Sebastian is a bright, intelligent, handsome and honest young man who likes to do things his own way. He has autism and his social skills are lacking, he speaks in a forthright manner, sometimes inappropriately, he struggles to understand the feelings of others and he doesn't have any friends. He is twenty years old and wants to have sex. Like really wants to have sex. Mum Veronica doesn't want him to miss out on anything and, whilst she is uncomfortable doing so, she seeks out escort Violetta in the hope that she can help her son. 

I loved this book - it gave me all the feels. It's written so carefully, so tenderly and we never pity Sebastian and nor should we. There were certainly moments where I wanted to reach in and hug him - which he wouldn't have allowed - but I saw him only in a positive light. I was cheering him on throughout the book. I loved the wee insights we got into how he thinks - 

'Mum has black lines under her eyes as deep as those ridges on a car tyre. She nods and looks at me like I'm the sad ending to one of those kissy-kissy films she watches on a Saturday night while eating Maltesers.'

'She smells so nice. Like she's made of lemon drizzle cake.'

Both of those made me cry. But I loved entering his ordered world and learning more about it. 

In Veronica we see a mother who loves her son more than anything in the world. She wants him to experience a 'normal' life but maybe has her reservations that he will be able to. She also wants to protect Sebastian from the cruelty of people who ridicule those they perceive to be different. And she is willing to do anything to make her son happy. 

I loved Violetta. Escorting is a means to an end for her and she has to endure some really awful things for it. She is deeply troubled and sad and that comes off the page. I really felt her pain and loved her letters to the night. 

All three main characters are wonderfully written. We feel their pain, their confusion, their sadness and their joy. I laughed and cried throughout. The storyline is brilliantly handled. It could so easily have been titillating, sordid but it is neither of these things. It's tender and beautiful, and we see Sebastian testing himself, becoming more independent. 

Autism Spectrum Disorder (ASD) is a much misunderstood condition which affects each individual differently. I love to see stories featuring an autistic character in a positive way - I feel they can only be helpful for people's awareness and understanding. And I very much feel that about This is How We Are Human. I know Louise consulted with a young friend with autism and his family and I think that shows in the writing. 

I must just mention the chapter headings because, taken out of context, some of them are really funny. 

'Veronica isn't happy with the skirting boards.'

'Sebastian wonders how he will know it's love and not indigestion.' Possibly a question for us all! 

'Isabelle's face is more readable than Jim Carrey's.'

This is How We Are Human is a book about desperation, bad choices, love and letting go. I defy anyone not to be moved by this book. It will make you laugh and make you cry. It will break your heart then make it sing. It will educate you. And I suspect it will stay with you for a long time. My favourite book of the year so far. Just beautiful. 

The Author


Louise Beech is an exceptional literary talent, whose debut novel How To Be Brave was a Guardian Readers’ Choice for 2015. The follow-up, The Mountain in My Shoe was shortlisted for Not the Booker Prize. Both of her previous books Maria in the Moon and The Lion Tamer Who Lost were widely reviewed, critically acclaimed and number-one bestsellers on Kindle. The Lion Tamer Who Lost was shortlisted for the RNA Most Popular Romantic Novel Award in 2019. Her 2019 novel Call Me Star Girl won Best magazine Book of the Year, and was followed by I Am Dust. Her short fiction has won the Glass Woman Prize, the Eric Hoffer Award for Prose, and the Aesthetica Creative Works competition, as well as shortlisting for the Bridport Prize twice. Louise lives with her husband on the outskirts of Hull, and loves her job as a Front of House Usher at Hull Truck Theatre, where her first play was performed in 2012.


Tuesday 22 June 2021

One Must Die by Mark Tilbury

It's my stop today on the blog tour for Mark Tilbury's latest twisted offering, One Must Die. I had the pleasure of beta reading this one a couple of months back and it certainly had me hooked!



The Blurb

I have both your sons, Mr Levitt. One of them must die. You choose.

Widower Sean Levitt receives the ominous message in the post a few days after his teenage boys go missing on their way to army cadets. As time progresses, the abductor makes increasingly horrific demands of Sean by sending him DVDs, and telling him to post videos online of the shocking assignments he sets him.

One Must Die is the story of one man’s fight to keep his sons alive, and the terrible lengths he must go to in order to do so.

Can Sean do what the police have failed to do and find his sons?
Or will the abductor achieve his twisted aim of destroying his entire family?

One Must Die will be published by Tilbury Publishing this Thursday and you can pre-order/buy it here.



My Review

You know when you're watching a horror film and you cover your eyes with your hands because you're scared, but then you peep through the gaps between your fingers because you don't actually want to miss anything? That's kind of how I feel when I read Mark's books! And this one is no different. 

Which one of your children should die? It's an impossible question to answer, except Sean Levitt is asked to do just that after normally reliable teenagers Peter and Ben don't come home from army cadets one evening. The abductor makes increasingly awful demands of Sean, sending his instructions on DVDs. Although advised not to, Sean does contact the police but is unimpressed with their actions, or lack thereof. He feels forced to act...

This is a tough read as, like many of Mark's books, it features children at the centre, and I think that always tugs the heartstrings that wee bit harder, especially if you're a parent. So there were many moments that I held my breath and hoped... The boys really touched me, especially Ben, the younger of the two brothers. His fear and defeat really came across. Peter is definitely the stronger of the two, and we see his determination to try to keep the two of them alive. 

Back at home, Sean's desperation really came through. These kind of books always make me wonder how I'd fare if something awful happened to my children - similarly possibly, but more likely much worse. But we see Sean's physical deterioration as the ordeal takes its toll and that, understandably, the plight of the boys is all he can think about. I loved his relationship with father-in-law Brian - really good to see two male characters with a really strong bond. From the other characters, I defy anyone not to feel for Britney - I was shouting (well, whispering anyway) encouragement for that girl! 

If you've never read any of Tilbury's books (there are plenty to choose from!) then you need to know they are dark and twisted, and this one won't be for everyone. But they're really worth checking out. Reading One Must Die I went through every emotion - horror, fear, relief, frustration, shock and repeat! I really went through the wringer with this one. The perpetrator is suitably creepy and chilling and his interactions with the boys sent shivers up my spine. Actually, pretty much all his actions did! 

There is a lot of violence in this book, both threatened and actual, so do be prepared for that. It escalates, as does the tension, as the book progresses towards a very gruesome conclusion. 

One Must Die is an effective, claustrophobic and disturbing psychological thriller with a gripping storyline and plenty of tension. It is not for the faint hearted but that could probably be said for all of Tilbury's books! But if you like your drama on the dark side of dark (and plenty of us do) then this is a book for you. I really enjoyed it, although after everything else I've said it feels kind of wrong to say that! But it definitely kept me turning the pages and you can't ask for much more than that. 


The Author
 

Mark lives in a small village in the lovely county of Cumbria, although his books are set in Oxfordshire where he was born and raised.

After being widowed and raising his two daughters, Mark finally took the plunge and self-published two books on Amazon, The Revelation Room and The Eyes of the Accused.

He's always had a keen interest in writing, and is extremely proud to have had seven novels published by Bloodhound Books. His latest novel, The Last One To See Her will be published 4th June 2020.

When he's not writing, Mark can be found playing guitar, reading and walking.

Saturday 19 June 2021

The Darlings by Angela Jackson

A bit of a change for me today as The Darlings by Angela Jackson isn't crime fiction but a family/relationship drama! Yes, occasionally I do read other genres! Thanks to Emma Welton at damppebbles blog tours for inviting me onto the tour and to the publisher for my review copy. 



The Blurb

THE DARING NEW NOVEL FROM THE AUTHOR OF THE EMERGENCE OF JUDY TAYLOR

When Mark Darling is fifteen years old, he is the golden boy, captain of the school football team, admired by all who know him. Until he kills his best friend in a freak accident.

He spends the next decade drifting between the therapy couch and dead-end pursuits. Then along comes Sadie. A mender by nature, she tries her best to fix him, and has enough energy to carry them both through the next few years.

One evening, Mark bumps into an old schoolfriend, Ruby. She saw the accident first hand. He is pulled towards her by a force stronger than logic: the universal need to reconcile one’s childhood wounds. This is his chance to, once again, feel the enveloping warmth of unconditional love. But can he leave behind the woman who rescued him from the pit of despair, the wife he loves? His unborn child?

This is a story about how childhood experience can profoundly impact how we behave as adults. It’s a story about betrayal, infidelity and how we often blinker ourselves to see a version of the truth that is more palatable to us.

The Darlings will be published in paperback and digital formats by Eye Books on 21st June 2021.


Purchase Links

Amazon UK: https://amzn.to/3cpZ7gk
Amazon US: https://amzn.to/3v3OgiD
Waterstones: https://bit.ly/3v409Vw
Hive.co.uk: https://bit.ly/34ZEaVq



My Review

As I aluded to above I mainly read crime and psychological thrillers, which by their nature can often be dark and/or disturbing. So occasionally, I like to tend a wee break and read something a bit different, a bit lighter. A palate  cleanser. And The Darlings was just that. 

Focusing on Mark Darling and his wife Sadie, this is a sharply observed story about the pressures a young couple expecting their first baby experience, especially when one of them has a traumatic past. Mark has been haunted since he was fifteen by the death of his best friend which led to years of destructive habits before his marriage to Sadie. Add to that problems getting pregnant and Mark's efforts to forge a new career in comedy, he's a man under pressure. In walks Ruby, an old school friend who was present at the accident that killed Fergus. Mark, I think, feels she can 'fix' him better than Sadie has, and they meet for coffee. And then meet again. And again... 

I thought Mark came across as very real. A man who has made some bad choices in life and makes more during the course of this book. But the reader, well, this one anyway, can understand the reasons why he makes them, even if we don't agree with them.  It's clear he loves Sadie, and is looking forward to (if terrified by) the forthcoming birth of their baby. But when we meet Mark he is still plagued by visions of the accident that killed Fergus twenty years earlier - neither Sadie not his counsellor has been successful in getting those to stop, and he's desperate for anything that might help. As well as that, Ruby is an escape from endless lists, planning, baby shopping, DIY, boring domesticity and that is a powerful attraction in itself.  

Ruby annoyed me a bit. I found her quite naive, I don't know whether I was supposed to or not but... Whilst she is not in possession of the full facts early on, her expectations were possibly unrealistic. But then again, we can't help who we fall on love with, can we?

There is quite a large cast of supporting players behind our three principals primarily made up of Sadie's family and Mark's mates. A big shout out here for my favourite character, Ava, Sadie's teenage sister. She's smart,  opinionated, direct and just starting to discover the complicated works of love herself. Thought she was brilliant.

I felt this was a pretty realistic look at a man making bad choices because he feels trapped by not only the past, but the present and future too. And the devastation he causes in his wake. It's an easy read, I read it in a couple of days, but I suspect that anyone who has any experience of an affair, from any angle, will be nodding knowingly at parts of the story. Given the subject matter you might expect this to be a heavy read but it isn't at all. Jackson deals with it with a light touch and there are moments where you will smile, laugh or maybe even groan, mainly at Mark's attempts at comedy. 

The Darlings is a story of love, bad choices, infidelity, betrayal and healing. It's populated with well rounded characters and deals deftly and effectively with a potentially difficult subject without ever lessening the seriousness of it. An easy, quick and enjoyable read. 


The Author


Angela Jackson is a former psychology lecturer and teacher trainer. Her debut novel The Emergence of Judy Taylor won the Edinburgh International Book Festival’s First Book Award and was Waterstones’ Scottish Book of the Year.

The Darlings is her second novel.

Originally from the north of England, she now lives with her family in Edinburgh.


Author Social Media Website

Tuesday 8 June 2021

Preacher Boy by Gwyn GB


I loved the sound of this book, the first in a new series, and jumped at the chance to be on the blog tour. My thanks to Rachel Gilbey at Rachel's Random Resources for inviting me and to the author for my review copy.
 


The Blurb

Dr Harrison Lane is everything you wouldn’t expect from a man with a psychology doctorate. For victims, he’s everything they need.

They look, but they don’t see…

As Head of the Metropolitan Police’s Ritualistic Behavioural Crimes Unit, Dr Harrison Lane knows his Voodoo from his Aum Shinrikyo and a Satanist from a Shaman.

Harrison had an unusual childhood, raised by a bohemian mother and one of the native American Shadow Wolves - the elite tracking squad that works with US Drug enforcers. After his mother’s murder, he dedicated his life to tracking down those who hide behind spiritualism and religion to do evil.

Following the discovery of a missing boy’s body in what looks like a Satanic killing, Harrison is called in to help detectives. When a second boy is snatched, it becomes a race against time to save him, and sees Harrison come face-to-face with some dark secrets from his own childhood.

Preacher Boy is the first book in a gripping new crime mystery series from Amazon Top 20 bestselling author, Gwyn GB. Perfect for fans of LJ Ross, JD Kirk, JR. Ellis, JM Dalgliesh, Rachel Abbott, Joy Ellis and David Blake.

Preacher Boy was published by Chalky Dog Publishing Ltd in paperback on 24th April 2021 and as an eBook on 5th June 2021.


Purchase Links

UK 
US 



My Review

So the first thing to say is that I've fallen in love with Dr Harrison Lane. Head over heels. It's not unusual for me to fall for characters in the books I read - goodness knows what that says about me 😂 - but Harrison Lane is a mysterious, tall, handsome, muscular, rock music loving, Harley Davidson rider - c'mon, what's not to like? A beard and/or long hair would've been a bonus, but I'm not complaining. 

Seriously though, Lane is a great character. A serious set of skills, many of which were developed during his unusual childhood. I don't think his unit is a thing in real life but I can't help thinking such a thing might help. It certainly means that Harrison and assistant Ryan get to work on some very  unusual cases.

The storyline here is a difficult one as it involves children and religion, both emotive subjects. I think both elements are handled well - having Lane involved gives a fresh spin on religious crime. I thought Sally, mother of the missing boy, was a brilliantly written character. Her desperation seeps out of the pages and I just wanted to give her the biggest hug. I also loved Ryan, Harrison's assistant. He does feature hugely but he beavers away in the back whilst munching away on fast food. I'd like to see a wee bit more of him in future books. 

Events move quite quickly and some of the scenes are quite graphic. Which didn't worry me but they're worth mentioning. Given the title, I expected a large religious element to the story and this is certainly the case but it is handled well. As the case and storyline progress the tension rises until an exciting, explosive denouement. 

There is a hint of romance here which I'm certainly not against but hope it doesn't become too big a thing in future books, detrimental to the story - I've had to give up on another series I enjoyed for that very reason. But here it's fine. I also like that there is an ongoing subplot around Harrison's early years. 

Preacher Boy is an excellent opener to a new series featuring an interesting and enigmatic protagonist, supported by a well drawn cast. The storyline is well thought out and detailed, full of tension and action. I thoroughly enjoyed it and look forward to joining Dr Lane for more adventures.



The Author

Gwyn is an Amazon Top 20 bestselling author. She’s a former UK national TV newscaster and presenter, and journalist for national newspapers and magazines. Gwyn became a journalist because all she wanted to do was write and has finally realised her dream of being a full-time fiction author. Born in the UK, Gwyn now lives in the Channel Islands with her family, including a rescue dog and 17-year-old goldfish.

Gwyn launched her debut novel, Islands as Gwyn Garfield-Bennett in 2016, the romantic suspense book rose quickly into the Amazon top 20. Her first crime mystery series, featuring DI Falle, launched with Lonely Hearts in 2017.


Author Social Media Links

Website: www.gwyngb.com
Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/GwynGBwriter
Twitter: https://twitter.com/GwynGB
Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/gwyngb/


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